Once upon a time; I used to be
a kid with no worries on my mind
mama held my hand as I walked
down the street, promised if I'd be
a good kid she'll get me a tasty treat
But time flies mama you know?
the little me afraid of letting go or
getting lost, is now all big yet lost
in this world, I let go of your hand
for I'm no longer a kid to be taught
those were my thoughts but now
my hand is empty & I'm left on my own
I wish you told me how we grow bigger
& so our fears, how we grow older but
never our tears, yesterday I tried to be
cautious of today but today turned out
to be atrocious &... my eyes, my eyes they
weren't even shut and so I was struck
By an ugly scene of me shaking while some
thorns were poking my fears all my traumas
came at me, all at once though I tried the
best I could to set me free, nowadays I
spend my time perplexed when will I be
struck by a thunder? Perhaps to stop this
soul that always ponders
Rewind ... I wanna rewind, mamma did me
wrong & I don’t dare to call this act foul play
replay, my whole life I wanna replay but time
is fixed & my consciousness it can't be fixed
my beliefs are now all mixed up yet I'm so
desperate for any answers to be fulfilled
and if they do God I would be thrilled!
Between life and after, shadows
of the death were my new master
within my flesh and bones their smears
took over me & none could no longer
hear my troubled moans, my soul is now
drenched in tears, would someone gently
wipe away those fears?
